Now what?

After being diagnosed with "unexplained secondary infertility" we decided to continue to try on our own with high hopes of being able to conceive naturally. In my head the 2 year mark was sorta my magic number. If it hadn't happened by that time then we would try to take further action. (Never really believing it would come to that) Here we are now though, one month shy of the 2 year mark. So, what now? We have a few options, we could keep on trying naturally, try with help from our reproductive endocrinologist, or consider looking into adoption. I have been praying and waiting, and waiting and praying on what to do. Lately, the only thing I can make sense of is trying with an IUI. I can't figure out, however if this is my impatient self wanting want I want now, and trying to control the situation, or is this the Lord prompting my spirit and leading me in that direction. I can come up with handfuls of guesses and reasons why God would have us go through infertility treatments, and I can do the same for the contrary. I guess it's not really my job to predict His plans for the future, but rather trust that He knows what they are, and they are good. Nichole

A Comeback?

I have been thinking about coming to my blog for a while, but just don't know. Maybe this will be a test post. When I look back at older posts, I realize I wrote about things that I have since forgotten, and it's nice to be reminded! Plus, it has now almost been 2 years that we have been walking through secondary infertility. Sometimes I think it would be nice to have the blog to layout all I think and feel going through it. I'm not always sure I want anyone to know all about it, while other times I wish somone knew every detail. Since only 2 people read my blog when I posted regularly, and that was 2 years ago, I suppose either scenario could be possible. Also, I worry the blog could just become too sad if all I talked about was secondary infertility, while there are a lot of support groups and blogs and articles that talk about infertility, the majority is about primary. There is little to be found on secondary. This could be the first post of many, or could be the last for 2 more years. Until next time (whenever that may be) Nichole